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Posted by koupip - January 26th, 2020

i wonder if one day ill be able to get back to drawing everyday. the hours seem to pass faster and faster and faster and i feel like time is leaving me behind. its like everyone is running and i'm trying to crawl along. i see all those artist that are like 2 years old at art and i'm here still garbage even tho i really did try my best. i try to see the positive as in if they can do it in 2 years i probably can too but i can't bring myself to actually sit down and draw. and its starting to make me hate myself.

today i wanted to draw at 18:00 i blinked and now its 23:48 and i didn't draw at all today again.

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Ratcaller 2020-01-27 02:57:07

Its called procrastination and majority of people are struggling with it too man :D

koupip 2020-01-27 02:57:07

i learned that procrastination is a survival instinct left over that stops you from trying anything new bc you fear being hurt bc you are bad at it. self defence mechanism

Bazeer 2020-01-27 23:22:43

When you draw, don't set expectations, it's not worth it when you are drawing for the sake of learning. I used to get really pissed off at my drawings being below my standards, but I decided that it wasn't worth it. It was better to analyse why my drawings weren't the standard at which I wanted.

If you treat each drawing as an experiment, trying out a different concept or new technique with each drawing for the sake of learning how to use those concepts or techniques you should not be unhappy. Every single time you draw something with an intention and it doesn't come out the way you want it, you are guided a little further.

I don't think you should care that you're bad at something btw, if you are doing it in your spare time. I feel like your focus is "I am bad at this thing, yet I want to improve, yet I am still bad at it and that badness makes me upset". Instead just be like "My work is not yet at the quality I want it to be at, so I need to figure out what is actually holding me back". If you get rid of your attitude about your work being bad and focus on just improving it, I promise you that focus will do you leaps and bounds for your work. What you give your attention to is what you shall experience the most.

Put that attention on improvement and away from self-degradation.

koupip 2020-01-27 23:22:43

I also feel like all i need is a change of perspective

Bazeer 2020-01-27 23:31:05

Stop focusing on what you believe you've lost and are going to lose, and start focusing on what you have to gain by starting now. Give up and you will never know how far you could have come.

If you want some pointers you can contact me.

Bazeer 2020-01-27 23:33:44

Also if you dislike your work, specifically figure out what you dislike. When you figure that out then you know what to change so that you can improve.

Ratcaller 2020-01-28 01:53:44

@Ratcaller @koupip Oh well, time to lower defenses I guess :D

koupip 2020-01-28 01:53:44

I really wonder why i'm so defencive

Ratcaller 2020-01-28 08:33:52

@Ratcaller @koupip @koupip I think everybody is by nature. You gotta throw yourself out there every now and then ;)

koupip 2020-01-28 08:33:52

At this point. A lot of people are here telling me i can do it, all i have to do is actually do it. I just need to fucking throw myself into drawing and not stop this time

Ratcaller 2020-01-28 08:56:42

@Ratcaller @koupip @koupip Exactly, make a nice setting for yourself, tea/coffee, something to chew on, ciggies, inspiring music, proper light. :D

koupip 2020-01-28 08:56:42

Funny you mention this bc i live in a damp. Mold infested attic with terrible light except the one coming from my pc

Ratcaller 2020-01-28 09:08:54

@Ratcaller @koupip @koupip Be careful, that can be a solid threat to your health in long run.

koupip 2020-01-28 09:08:54

don't owrry its not black mold its just plane old humidity getting into the drywall

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